Really Hurt...

So it's just after 3am, and I'm still awake... my Fiance isn't so wonderful right now. Let me start at the beginning, and tell you why:

So last weekend, I had mentioned that him and I had gotten into a fight, and that I had picked it over nothing... Well that wasn't really true... I had picked it, because I was pissed off at him for putting me off to go out with his friends ALL FREAKING DAY AND NIGHT!!! It was kinda building up for a while, for the last three weeks (last week) he had all of a sudden started going out on Friday AND Saturday nights, when he was previously only going out on friday nights since he arrived at Sheppard. He was spending over $100/weekend on drinking and bingeing on fast food after drinking, when we're trying to save up as much extra as we could for our wedding!!! We have two accounts, our joint account, and his other account that his pay is deposited into. We havent changed his deposits yet, so for now I write checks from his check books to myself until we can change it (we both know its a quick thing, and there IS a reason why we havent done it yet...), so he asked me to go on his account site and check his avail bal, and we noticed a charge for something that we bought while i was there from 3/25-4/5, so I went back aways to make sure they didnt charge us twice. thats when I noticed how much he had been spending on going out! I brought it to his attention... he acknowledged it by going out and spending just as much money this past weekend!! then on saturday I was expecially lonely and missing him, and I made that clear, but he was SO EXCITED about meeting up with his buddies, that instead of being there for me, like i always am for him, he rushed me to skype, so he could hit the bar at like 2 in the afternoon to drink for the rest of the day and late into the night... then finally, when he emerged on Sunday (with an attitude as usual for the last few weeks because he's pissed off and hung over!!!!!!) he informed me that he was going to order netfix! you see, last week,s ome adware atacked his computer, and he had to pay $200 to have it fixed! and then spent $100+ in two days at the bar... the $9.00/month netfix just put me over the top!!!! I totally flipped on him! So finally when we got down to the bottom line that he doesnt take my thoughts and feelings into consideration, and he just does whatever he wants and doesnt give a shit what i think, and hanging out with his buddies is much more important to him than spending the little bit of time we have with eachother looking at eachother on a computer screen (or atleast thats how he made me feel!) He apologized, and so did i, because i didnt go about expressing it in a very adult like manor... He was pretty awesome all week, and talked wedding stuff, and even tried not to be grouchy with me in the mornings... until TODAY (he agreed that we needed to save money, and compromised that he would only go out one night a weekend to ry to save a little bit more, since i like NEVER go out, mor do i spend money on unnecessary stuff): He decided that he was going to go home after class and just hang out because the yanks were playing the sox tomorrow, and he wanted to go out to the bar to watch the game... he knew that i was up after he got out of class, so he called to say goodnight... said he was going to go have a smoke at the "smoke pit" with his buddy, go grab some sonic, have one more smoke, then jead back to his room to watch the netflix rental he got in the mail today... I kinda had a feeling something was up, because something didnt seem right. so after a little while, i came up with an excuse to call him (said i heard a scarey noise and wanted to talk to him, because i was scared...), he said that he was still at the smoke pit, then screwed up and sid that he was "coming back here" (to the smoke pit?) tomorrow night to watch the yanks, then corrected himself and said that he ment the bar... and then said "ok babe, let me go hang out with my buddies, go get some sleep, and i'll talk to you in the morn..." NOW i REALLY knew something was off... because I asked him again where he was, and said that i had gotten confused because of what he has said about where he was going to watch the game tomorrow, and he said something about everywhere is "there" if its not the dorm... but he didnt sy "there" he said "HERE"!!!! then the whole "let me go hand out with my buddies" was the aboslute DEAD give away because a. he only left with ONE BUDDY and b. because thats what he says when he wants to get off the phone to get back to drinking with his buddies at the bar! I started texting him like an hour later because I coldnt sleep because i knew that he was out at the bar, not in his bed where he said he was... he was being VERY evasive with his responses, so I CALLED HIM! he didnt pick up twice, but i got a text inbetween both calls, then he called me right back. said he was ih his dorm, and that he had gone to the bathroom and thats why he didnt pick up, as the winds is blowing away into the phone!!! he finally admitted that he was at the bar, and i told hi nthat i was hurt and disappointed that he had lied to me, and that this just proved that he didnt care at all for my feelings, and that his need to go to the bar was FAR MORE important than my feelings. he's apologized to me like a million times already, but i'm jsut so hurt... about 6wks before he left for BMT he broke my trust prety bad, and we've gotten so far since then, and for him to just break it down like that after all the progress we've made... it just really hurts. We have a thing that we dont go to bed mad at eachother, but im just SO HURT! I dont know if ill be able to sleep a wink tonight... and I had the best day too! SMH...