FLOWERS!!!!!!!

Hello all! hope everyone is doing well today! Ive been upset for the past couple of days... i got a horrible email from a friend of mine.... or i guess i should say a former friend... let me give you a little background on the whole subject: ok i graduated in 02. Becky and I were friends all through high school. after graduation, we just stopped hanging out... i dont remember if there was a reason why... i just dont remember hanging out with her after that... i maybe ran into her 2-3 times in the years to follow, and then back in 08 we found out that we were both pregnant, and due in the spring of 09. we started talking a little more again, and hung out a few times... after our sons were born, we hung out a couple more times, but she frequiently made plans with me and then blew them off... she was only avail when she wanted to be, never when i asked her, or needed a friend, even though i was always there for her when she needed someone to talk to... then, back in the fall, she moved out to WI like two weeks after Dan left for BMT... she would call me and send me fb emails venting about her boyfriends family and how much they sucked, and when she needed to complain about her boyfriend and what a big fat jerk he was... she would even text me for advice when her son had problems eating/sleeping/pooping/etc. BUT when i needed to vent, or needed a friend, because Dan has been gone since freaking OCTOBER she's was always too busy! she was never avail when i needed her! so back a few months ago, a friends of ours that we "met" through FB while we both were pregnant (she was pregnant too, we were all members of a group on there we never actually met here face to face, but i had gotten REALLY CLOSE with her through text messages and FB), texted me and told me that she was pregnant again! i was so excited for her! then she told me later that i was the first person she told, even before her mother! you see this girl reminds me alot of my sister erica, and I think that she feels sort of the same way about me... like im a sister than she never had... so, when Dan proposed to me on easter, i took a picture of the ring and sent it to her that night! she was the first person i thought of! i only told one other person about it, and that was my sister erica. when we came home, we waited about a week before we told our families, and dan changed his relationship status... well a hs fb friend commented on dan's status change, and Becky saw it... now, Evan and I were in Texas for 1o days. it took me about a week of prep before we left, and about a week or two after we got back to get back into the swing of being home... i hadnt talked to becky at all during that time... in fact we hadnt talked much at all, even before that time, unless she has a question on how to get her son to not be so constipated... so one day i get a text from her saying that she saw that we were engaged and wanted to know why i didnt tell her... i genually thought that she wasnt being serious about it... so i kinda laughed it off and said it was because we wanted to tell our fam first... that was the end of that.... we went on talking occationally, if that for the past month... then last night i get this email from her telling me how upset she was, and how she talked to all these people that know both of us, and they all agree that it is really messed up that i didnt tell her like right away when i got engaged (even though i told our other friend), that she found out on fb (like all the rest of our friends!!!!!)... so heres the other thing that really upset her: she didnt get an invite to our wedding. anyone who has had a wedding knows that you make a list of guests... then you split that to an A list and a B list... THEN once people start RSVPing that they cant come, you send out a second wave of invites to people on the B list. well, Dan and I were no exception to this! our list was much too long, so we had to do just that... Becky ended up on the B list... heres another thing though, i wasnt the only person making this list, DAN was also contributing! he put one of his very best friends on the A list... this girl was, to say the least, a bitch in HS... she was really stuck up, and would not associate with anyone that wasnt her friend... Becky doesnt like her. I explained to Becky MONTHS ago, that this girl has grown up significantly since high school, and she's not like that anymore... she's acutally a really cool chick, and really fun to hang out with... needless to say, she got her invite, and fb'd me telling me how excited she was to be coming to our wedding... Becky on the other had, did not... I have to say that i just really wasnt expecting all of this! and i really dont know what to do... I want to write back to her, but i dont really know what to say, expecially since she closed the message with "theres no need for excuses or apologies, whats done is done.. " and I really dont feel comfortable sending her an invite after all of this... what a frustrating situation... if i didnt have enough going on right now...!

anywho, i didnt really expect tht rant to be so long... although, i do feel muh better not that i got it off my chest... moving on!!! I went with my mom today, and picked out my wedding flowers!!!!! :):):):):):):):):):):):):):) it was so much fun!!! i was having the worst day between yesterdays email from becky that i got right before bed, and then my mother being a total bitch, and Dan being a serious grouch... I needed somehting wonderful like this to uplif my spirits!!! and it did just that!! and also, the lady was SO positive!!! it was so nice to talk to someone who didnt criticise my every move for this wedding! my mother has been rude and has complained about every single thing including the fact that we have to be at the hair salon to get our hair done at 6am on our wedding day! she has complained about this over and over to every and anyone who will listen!! among other things, like i had mentioned the other day, about the stupid roses... and the lady just said that it was SO MUCH FUN, and that it was going to be such a blast! it was such a breath of fresh air! :) and she told my mother that i wasnt the first bride who didnt want roses!!! What a GREAT TIME it was!!! :):):) it was so much fun!!! im just hoping now, that dan's mother will come through with the funds that she said that she would pay for the flowers...

I have to say, that i feel as though i am very negative lately on here... i really think im getting depressed over here... i have so much stress with the wedding, dan being gone, baby daddy, etc... i really just need a break. trouble is, i dont have an outlet... it really stinks sometimes... :/