Memorial Day

Happy Memorial Day to all! I never really paid much attention to what this holiday was all about until now. Now, it really hits home. Seeing all of the videos realy makes me dread deployment. TOday marks 25 days until Dan comes ome from tech school! I cant wai to have him home! these two days off have really been a blessing! I was SO exausted from working... I'm totally NOT used to it! Hope everyone enjoys the rest of the holiday... remember to thank a service member today!

Four Weeks

So today marks 4wks until Dan comes home! I cant wait to see him! :) I found out today, that I prolly have to work the day he gets home... and the day after too... I'm going to try t talk to the other girl in the office and see if we can switch so I dont have to work... another option is Dan picking a later flight, so he gets home after I get out... I REALLY want to greet him at the airport... I DONT want him to come home to an EMPTY HOUSE after being gone for 9months... talk about making someone feel like no-one cares!!! :( oh well, we'll figure it out...

I'm SO tired from getting up early, and working 9 1/2hr days!!!! today was my little cousin's bday, so we went there after work today, and Ev fell asleep on the way home from their house... i thought he was going to stay asleep, but urns out he's not going to... gotta give him a bath, then back to bed he goes! then off to bed for me as well!

First Day

Today was my first day back to work. It was also the first day Evan went to Daycare... Dropping Evan off at daycare, and LEAVING HIM THERE was one of the hardest things I've EVER had to do in my life!! I couldnt breathe, I felt like I was going to throw up, and I balled my eyes out ALL THE WAY to work!!! Dan is so awesome though... I called him at 830 crying and crying my eyes out, and even though it was early, and everything, he was so patient and talked me through it and made me feel better!

Work went well... It was SO busy this morning, that it pretty much took my mind off of Evan being at daycare... I held off until noon then called the lady, and she said that Evan was FINE! He didt cry one single bit ALL DAY! Not even when I left! He went right down for his nap with no issues either, and had a blast with all the rest of the kids! He even ate his bfast, lunch and snacks like a big boy!!!!

what an exausting day though! its been a LOOONG time since ive been to work! ...Gotta go get my lunch ready for tomorrow, and hit the hay! Gotta be thee for 7 tomorrow so that means I have to get up at like 530-6... BLAH

Dear Love,

I miss you and I want you here. Nights like tonight when I can barely breathe over something horrible going on, I just wish you could hold me.

I'm so done with you being gone! Enough is enough already! Come home to Evan and I. Come be a family with us, eat meals with us, come to the park with us, and visit your family with us! I am so proud of all you do, and everything you're becoming, I just wish we could be together while you're accomplishing all of this!

Its weighing heavy on me that I won't be at your graduation. I know that it doesn't seem like a big deal to you, but its huge to me! You mean everything to me, and your accomplishments are mine!

I'm so sick of living without you. I know this is the part I signed up for, and I will wait for you until the end of time, you never have to worry about that! Its the hard times that define us, and you know I've been going through a jungle of them lately... And just I wish you were here to battle them with me.

I love you more than words could ever express. I cannot wait to become your wife, I cannot wait to grow old with you, and watch all of our future little grandbabies grow and play.

Your's always, Ang

Missing My Airman...

So, this morning, I've been going around and checking out all the blogs I follow, and have even started following some more... reading people's posts about homecomings and such has REALLY made me miss my Airman! its a little over 4wks until he comes home, and I'm getting SO antsy!!! I know he's only coming home from tech school, but He Left for BMT on October 13th 2009... and we've only seen eachother for just a selected few times since then... I also know it would (and will) be much harder when he eventually deploys, but I just want him HOME!!!! he's been gone for SO LONG, and I'm SO READY for us to start our new life together as an Air Force family! Me going back to work isnt exactly what I had pictured (and its really gonna stink when he does actually come home, and he's on leave, and I'll have to get up and go to work every day instead of spending that precious time with him... :/), but everything happens for a reason... even if we dont know what it is just yet... it's just gonna be great to have him home, I just wish the time will hurry up and go by already!!! lol oh yeah, and for it to FINALLY be August 21st so I can MARRY the LOVE OF MY LIFE!!!!
(we were talking this past weekend, and its VERY important to Dan that we get married in a church, and we're not sure how the Father will feel if we get married before our wedding... we're going to talk to him about it when he returns before we go ahead and get married when he gets back... I'm a little disappointed... it would have been our little secret... but I was still looking forward to it...)

Sitter

So I met the lady from the daycare today... She is SO awesome!!! and Evan had THE BEST time over there too!!! I wish I could shake the feeling of abandonment that I have though... I guess that will come with time!

I watched the season finales of the Monday night CBS shows! they were awesome! Cant wait to see The Good Wife's tomorrow!! I LOVE that show!! :)

I miss my Airman tonight... He goes to his Briefing tomorrow that all the Airman go to 30days before they graduate!!! Soooooooo you all know what that means RIGHT?!?!??!!??! HE'LL BE HOME IN 30DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3>I can't WAIT to have my Airman home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

Hopefully, my first day back at work on Wednesday will go well... :) Gnite all...

Job.

So ladies, I have news... I'm not sure if its good news or bad news at this point... BUT I have a JOB...! I wasnt looking for one, but my dad callled me on friday, and offered me my old job back... I dont know what i think about this just yet... I found a really amazing day care to place Evan while I work, and lined up a sitter for Saturdays too until Dan gets home in less than 5wks! it all happened SO soon... I start Wednesday! I'm SO SCARED!!! I'm going to try and meet with the daycare lady tomorrow.. and have a few things that I need to get done before Wednesday, so I'm going to have a really VERY busy next few days until I have to get up at the butt crack of dawn to start working... Gosh, it feels like the first day of school!!!